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Dealing with Writer’s Block and Overthinking

A blank page. Cursor blinking. On. Off. On. Off. On… Fingers switching between resting on the keys and restlessly thrumming on them but no words are filling the page.

What I just described is a part of what it feels like to have writer’s block. There are either too many ideas but no clarity of how to write them or simply too few and your mind feels blank, as if there are no words in it.

To be fairly honest with you, I don’t know what this post is going to be, nor do I know, if I will even publish this. I just have the need to write something, anything at all, because it feels like I can’t at the moment. What I’m writing doesn’t feel good enough, not worthy enough, not cohesive enough to be on the Internet and be read by you. Words too shallow, sentences and paragraphs not long enough. I just need to prove to myself that I still know how to write.

Should I publish this, it is not to arouse pity or make you feel like you have to reassure me. It is simply to show what I think many writers, no matter the type of content they produce, go through sometimes. Some more (often) some less (often). And I would also say that depending on the individual, the experience is different for each and everyone.

So, now we know what the problem is but how do we deal with it? Well, I think the best way how to deal with writer’s block or rather, how I always deal with it, is by writing. Ha, ha, very funny Luna. Yeah, no, I am serious. Just sit down and write. Don’t focus on your project, the text that you’re supposed to be writing, but just write. Open your notepad, Word or whatever program it is you’re using to write, or simply grab a pen and some paper or a notebook and just write. Whatever comes to your mind. Your current thoughts, recount your day, a conversation you had with a friend and what you think about it. Just write. Produce words.

It can be so freeing not to focus on anything specific but just open your mind and let anything that comes to mind flow onto the page. It’s basically what I am doing right now. I just sat down and wrote. Not thinking about anything specific, just letting the thoughts that are currently bothering me be those thoughts and as I am writing, it feels like the text is writing itself. I’m not really worried about structure, cohesiveness or anything else, I’m just writing, with no goal in mind.

Sometimes we worry too much about what we’re writing, how we’re writing it and what people will think of it. Heck, today it took me about 20 minutes just to formulate a single email because I was overthinking it and double checking everything. Sure, some people would call that professional, it’s just something you do, if you wanna make sure that there are no mistakes, but I would say there is a small line between being throrough and exact and being pedantic. Like, I overthink every single sentence that I write. Is the tone right? What if it is misconstrued? CAN it even be misconstrued? And so on and so forth. It’s exhausting, really.

Realizing that sometimes writing can just be, well writing aka the act of putting words down and doesn’t in and of itself come with any rules or requirements, can really help take the strain off of things.

I think I will publish this, even if it’s just to show you this process that I and likely many others go through from time to time. Who knows, maybe it helps some of you to feel more confident in your own writing. Maybe you realize that not everything you write has to be absolutely perfect every single time and maybe, just maybe it’ll help you to be a little bit kinder to yourself, just as I am being right now.

Take care and stay safe, everyone ❤

~Luna


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Instant Gratification Station

This is, in a way, an add-on to my other post. Check that one out, if you haven’t already. I think I’ve mentioned instant gratification briefly in my other post but I’ve recently noticed how bad it can actually get.

Motivational issues are nothing new to anybody I would think. It’s just one of these days where you feel kinda “meh” about the things you have to do and procrastinate on them by doing other things. Yeah, that’s what your day usually looks like, if you’re procrastinator. However, I have these days where I go and procrastinate on things that I actually want to do by doing other things that I also like but do everyday anyway.

There are exactly two reactions that one gets when they describe this issue to someone else. It’s either “oh, yeah, I do that too” or “eeeeeh….what?”. Let me explain it to the ones that had the second reaction while reading this: This means that I want to, for example, play a video game sometime during the day and I have the free time to do so but I end up being on my phone instead (like being on Pinterest for ages, anyone else?) until it’s too late to actually still play said video game and I end up being salty because I didn’t get to do the thing that I actually wanted to do…. Aka. I didn’t have “proper freetime” because being on my phone is something I do every single day anyway, like that doesn’t count as freetime, what are you talking about?

Or to give you another example: I will sit there and watch a movie that I haven’t seen before and I am actually curious to know what will happen but I want to know it right then and there and so I take out my phone and google the fucking plot summary instead of normally watching the movie like any other person would…

Yeeeah, I’ll give you a moment to take that in…

It is so absolutely and utterly stupid that I don’t even know myself how I can justify that in any way, shape or form. I don’t think you can. But the main problem is: I feel like it’s getting worse and worse. We basically have constant entertainment at our disposal. The Internet is filled with things that we can discover and oh yes… look… the approximately 6000th pin that I can save to one of my many boards, don’t mind if I do… Now, where was I? Dammit, got distracted again.

It’s so easy to fall into this trap of instant gratification, even if you’re actually looking forward to something else. Because why turn on the PC and start a game, when I have my phone right here, next to my cozy and warm bed, and I don’t even have to properly move in order to get it? And I would say that, as someone who is already succumbing to instant gratification when procrastinating on the things I have to do, it’s even easier to succumb to it in every other situation as well.

It’s insanely frustrating and the only real solution is to just stop doing it. There is no magic potion, no productivity tool, no “try this and all your problems will be a thing of the past” voodoo trick that will solve this issue, the same goes for procrastination. It’s all just mentality. That and the fight against the weaker self that you have to do over and over and over again until you finally come out on top for good.

sighs But hey, who knows maybe this year will finally be the one where I beat procrastination and everything it comes with for good – yeah, let’s all laugh together.

Anyways, I am gonna go now and make sure my procrastinating, instant gratification loving ass has less to procrastinate on. Take care everyone! ❤

~Luna

Now reading through what I have just written, it almost seems as if my phone was the problem, but psssssh… let’s not go into that shall we?


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2021 RECAP

Starting to stream, receiving a huge boost, finding new friends through streaming, increasing my work hours, losing my job… So many things have happened…

Hi, I’m back! 2021 definitely was a roller coaster from start to finish. Strap yourselves in folks, this is gonna be a long one.

So I recently cracked open my, admittedly very failed, Bullet Journal for 2021 (the last spread I did was April…but let’s not talk about that now shall we? 😅) and realized that almost all of the things that I wrote at the very beginning of the year, the things that 2021 should be filled with, 2021 has actually been filled with.

Happiness, ideas, togetherness, positivity, hugs, luck, laughter, growth, opportunities and many more…

But there were also multiple things that went less than ideal. So let’s start the recap, shall we?

As you may or may not know, I started streaming last year in April. Pretty much along the same time, I opened this blog and began writing blog posts. Was, unfortunately, not really able to keep up with it, but more on that and why I’m hoping to change that again in a bit. Pretty soon after I had started streaming, I was insanely lucky to receive a huge boost, for which I will be forever grateful, and suddenly there were people actually watching and caring about what I did. It was an incredible feeling and I was extraordinarily happy. So happy that I wished I could do it all the time. However, I was still working part time and had even recently increased my hours, because I had actually managed to get myself a bachelor’s degree and wanted to focus a bit more on working instead of uni. Didn’t mean that I wanted to stop focusing on uni completely, but at that point we had summer holidays, so stuff worked out, but boy was I naive to think that it would continue being that way. (Spoiler: It didn’t.)

Summer holidays also meant I had more time for being social, which was great, considering I had actually found new friends via streaming. Didn’t think it was actually possible to get this close with people you’ve never met in real life, but the internet, chatting and video phoning did it’s job and we knew pretty quickly that we wanted to meet in real life. All of that required planning and since I was the only one that was working every single day, we had to plan that around that somehow. It worked out, but it certainly wasn’t ideal, however, it wasn’t as if I could have just taken time off anytime someone was coming, so it was what it was.

As the summer faded, work became more and more demanding, which is not a surprise considering more hours meant more responsibility, and I quickly realized that I probably wouldn’t be able to continue as things were, but I tried. I tried to squeeze everyhing I could into the day: work, stream, blog, other socials, uni, workout, social life, at that point also a relationship and free time/time where I took care of myself. Needless to say, it didn’t work out and multiple fights, mental break downs, lost sleep and lost weight, due to simply not having the time to eat, were the result of the lifestyle that I was living, but I tried to keep going. My friends became more and more concerend about me and my health and tried to make me see that I was already at my limit and wouldn’t be able to continue, but I was stubborn.

Then came September, October and the beginning of November. Now, sorry, I know that sounds all dramatic and stuff, like something along the lines of “everything changed when the fire nation attacked” but it was sorta dramatic. At the end of September I lost my, what I thought was a stable job, due to economical reasons. This was a first for me and I knew that I had 6 weeks in order to find something new. I wanted to give Twitch a chance, but doing that meant that I had to see whether or not I could make it work. So I increased my stream hours, while simultaneously looking for a new job, because I didn’t think it would work out financially otherwise.

The next one and half months were hell. Uni had picked back up and that meant that I had even less time for the stuff I was doing. So there I was, trying to manage a week with about 12-15 hours of streaming, 15 hours of work, about 2-3 hours of uni each day, doing organisatory and bureaucracy stuff for the stream, trying not to fry my social life completely, being there for the people who needed me, trying to keep my relationship from completely breaking appart and doing the bare minimum to keep my soul from leaving my body, in order to find a more responsible vessel… Yeah… I don’t think that I need to tell you that this is definitely not something you should do.

Relief came with a talk that I had with my parents, who told me that for now I don’t have to worry about finding something new. That I should give Twitch a chance. That I should cut back at work to do the necessary but not more and also cut back at uni, since I have a degree already and can always focus on uni again, once the other things are sorted out. I am so insanely grateful to them for being as supportive as they are. Yes, I may be 25 years old and no longer need the approval from my parents, but knowing that they do support you is just absolutely incredible. From then on things began to be a bit easier. It was still stressful but the insane pressure lessened. Unfortunately, my relationship did end up falling appart, but I’m not gonna elaborate on that any further. It just didn’t work out, because we had different views.

For the rest of the year I fell into a somewhat comfortable rythm. Doing uni, which sadly started being online again, so my motivation for that flew out of the window never to be seen again pretty quickly, and streaming in between. And for a while that worked out pretty well. However, towards the end of the year and beginning this year I started to notice that something wasn’t right. I felt frustrated and angry with myself and didn’t even know why for some time. After a while I realized that it was, because I wasn’t being as productive as I’d liked to be and that wasn’t happy anymore with the quality of the content I was producing. Granted, I was also dealing with some health issues, but my mentality plummeted and I felt drained more often than not. On top that I felt like I wasn’t improving anymore. I had lost my fire and had gotten too comfortable. I had completely stopped producing any sort of other content other than stream and I had gotten bored of myself, my own content.

All of this I realized with a clarity when I woke up one day, after a horrid night’s sleep, and my head just started screaming at me. All of my insecurities, self-doubt and every negative thought I’ve ever had about myself were there all of a sudden and they were so loud. After I had finally found a way to make them quieten down again, I knew with a clarity that this wasn’t how things can continue. I needed to change something. What those changes are gonna be exactly, is at the point of writing this post still up in the air. I’m hoping to use this week to clean up some “constuction zones” that are currently open, reorganize myself and figure out not if but how I’m gonna continue this adventure I’m currently on.

However, one of the things that I already know that I wanna change, is to create other content besides streaming again, including blog posts. The plan is to do at least one a week, even if it’s just someting I ramble about and it’s less elaborate than this one right here. Some of the other things that I wanna work out is my own health – mentally and physically. I can’t just stop taking care of my body any time things get stressful, so I also need to find preventitive measures to make sure that all of the negative things above don’t happen again, and, on top of all that, I need to find a way to realistically decide, what I can promise others and myself, as to not keep feeling like I’m disappointing people and myself.

So yeah, that was my 2021 and the beginning of 2022. I know that it was a long post, so thank you for taking the time to read. It feels good to be back to writing and I’m hoping that I will be able to keep up with it.

Time to show you what I can do once I have regained my passion!

But for now, see (read) you in the next one! Please stay safe and healthy! ❤

~Luna


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Day 4 – Rock Bottom

This day… was certainly a day… Oh, who am I kidding, this day was an absolute wreck, for both of us ironically, but I did want to include it, so you can see that not every day goes as well as you think it will.

Nighttime, Getting Up and Morning Routines

Joan: “I gotta be honest. I feel like I already kinda failed the challenge a bit [please insert gif of Alfred here]. I didn’t wake up at 8 AM but overslept about half an hour. I attribute this to my bad sleep tho tbh. I went to bed at midnight, fell asleep at around 1 and woke up around 5 the first time (?) and 6:30 the second time (???). Nevertheless I still got my morning routine done and felt a bit better after completing it. Maybe my body is already kinda accustomed to my new rhythm (now watch my body screw it up for week two 😅).”

Me: Not gonna lie, I now know what people mean when they say that a ruined morning kinda equals a bad rest of a day, but let’s start with the morning. I got some annoying news from my university that sent me on a treasure hunt through the whole flat in order to look for something that I haven’t looked at in three years . Didn’t find it and got super worried about what that meant, only to find out that it wasn’t that important at all… 😒. That whole ordeal led to me not being able to do my morning routine at all, which made me realize how much I’ve already gotten used to it.

Mood

Joan: “I wasn’t in a bad mood per se, but I felt kinda disappointed in myself for not waking up on time (I know it’s a bit nitpicky but still. Sometimes I felt kinda aggravated and even lashed out a bit because of minor inconveniences but overall I wasn’t death on two legs (please tell me there is a Queen fan out there that gets it 😅). I just felt kinda discombobulated.”

Me: The best way how to describe my mood for that day is: all over the place. It started out with being angry and annoyed and only got to somewhat neutral after some meditation in the afternoon. I also wasn’t really satisfied with anything I did. In short: I didn’t handle my frustration well at all.

Productivity

Joan: “As my energy was kinda absent today, I decided to postpone the two lectures I had today (they are asynchronous) and spend some time working on my Bullet Journal and on my guitar skills. This helped a bit with getting out of my funk.”

Me: Thankfully, I didn’t have much to do at work as my productivity was extremely low and I only did what was absolutely necessary.

Sleepiness-Level

Joan: “Yeah so sleepiness-level… IT’S OVER 9000 (too cliche?). No but seriously, I basically felt sleepy the entire day and even after my morning routine and the creative break, that didn’t change a lot. I’m really looking forward to going to sleep tonight and hope that I won’t wake up that often again.”

Me: Honestly? Couldn’t have said it better than Joan already did. I almost fell asleep several times during the day and felt extraordinarily exhausted as well. Don’t really know, if the weather or the general lack of motivation are to blame here but probably a combination of both.

Motivation

Joan: “Not a lot of energy for me also equals not a lot of motivation. I didn’t really feel motivated to practice guitar or to Bullet Journal, but I know that it helps when I’m having a bad day so I decided to do that nonetheless.”

Me: Looking at the rest of the parameters today, it’s safe to say that my motivation was also kinda trash. I did get dressed and put some make-up on in the hopes that it would improve everything a little bit but while it helped a little, it did not do a whole lot.

So yeah, this was a indeed a day. But I hope that it helps you understand that not everything always goes according to plan and that there can be bad days. You can still learn something from bad days tho, so I’m kinda glad I do get to experience both the ups and the downs of this challenge.

Please make sure you stay safe and healthy and I’ll “see” you in the next blog post. ❤

~Luna


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Day 3 – A lil bit of both

I know, I know, “wow Luna way to keep the title vague” but honestly, I don’t really know, how else to describe this day xD

Nighttime, Getting up and Morning Routine

Joan: “Waking up was the hardest so far today. I only really fell asleep at around 2am so that may be the reason why I really didn’t feel like getting up.”

As I mentioned, I tried to not listen to anything or at least not to anything with talking while falling asleep. Boy, when I tell you that this was hard…. I couldn’t do it. I had to resort to an episode of the “Harry Podcast” by Coldmirror, as I always love listening to her. Given that I have listened to that episode more times than I can count (yes, they are over an hour long, don’t at me), I wasn’t really paying attention to anything she said. 

Also, I must say that I am surprised how much “better” I have gotten at Yoga in that short amount of time, but it’s only a beginner course and I am already pretty flexible to begin with (weird FLEX [GET IT?] but ok 😅).”

Me: Getting up was a bit rough today cause I didn’t get my full 7,5 hours of sleep. (I know I sound like a whiny little baby right now, but being tired/ not having gotten enough sleep tends to put me in a real bitchy mood 😅). On that note, a while ago, I have started to actually pay attention to sleep cycles, which are 90 minutes long each and you should get at least 6 hours but maximum of 9 hours of sleep each night, in order to have a healthy sleep schedule; at least according to scientists. For me, I have figured out that the middle between these two, so 7,5 hours, works best, as I feel really well rested and tend to be able to keep my sleepiness in check during the whole day.

I have also started to actually get dressed and get ready for the day so that I could leave the house at any time. I figured out that it helps me be more productive and alert, if I don’t hang around in jogging pants all day and it feels almost like a reward to actually get changed into comfy clothes after having a productive day.

Mood

Joan: “My mood was pretty good overall. I felt a bit off right after waking up and it wasn’t that nice, but after I did my morning routine and got into my groove, I felt pretty good.” 

Me: I had a bit of an up and down on that day. I had to deal with some organisation stuff for university, which got me in a bad mood cause I figured out that there was still some stuff that had to be done, until I can finally start with the next step on my university education path, but there were also some good and positive things happening during the day, which kind of counterbalanced the negatives.

Productivity

Joan: “I didn’t feel that productive today as I just attended the 2 lectures I had and washed/styled my hair. (Takes a long time so I felt pretty accomplished after that). I did my makeup and got “dressed up” because that’s usually what helps me get into a good mood and mindset.”

Me: I’d say my productivity was medium today. I did the stuff that I needed to do, but I found myself getting more distracted by things than I did the past two days. (*Procrastination is laughing in the shadows*).

Sleepiness-Level

Joan: “Just like the past 2 days, I had energy crash at around 10-11am but otherwise there was no no real change.”

Me: I did end up falling asleep for like 15-20 minutes in the afternoon, which I think was also influenced by how garbage the weather was that day, but I definitely felt a little bit more sleepy during the day in comparison to the past two days.

Motivation

Joan: “Because I’m getting up way earlier than I usually would, I feel like I have way more time on my hands to actually do stuff and not feel guilty about using some of my time to relax or to do creative stuff. The day feels longer now and like there is a lot more potential to make use of. I felt motivated to “make myself pretty” (I am always pretty and so are all of you, but I digress) and participate in my classes today (talking in online classes…. the bane of my existence). All in all I think my motivation has kinda improved already at least from what I can tell so far into the challenge.”

Me: I kinda had a bit of a lack of motivation today. As I said, I did get the stuff that I had to do done, but I didn’t really feel like doing any personal stuff/projects. However, I do think that my bad mood is to blame for that. Also, it is okay to have bad days or days where you don’t feel that motivated and we should all accept that and be okay with that. We’re not machines after all 😊

And with that, boom, another day is done! I’m certainly curious to see what tomorrow brings 😄 Hopefully you’re still enjoying reading about our journey through this challenge and please make sure you stay safe and healthy! ❤

~Luna


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Getting Up and Morning Routines

Joan: “Getting up proved to be harder today. I am not entirely sure if that is because I didn’t sleep well or if my body has yet to get used to my new sleeping schedule.”

Me: Getting up for me was a bit easier than on day 1, probably because I actually slept through instead of staring at the ceiling for an hour at 2am, like the day before.

I now also have a morning routine – whoo go me I guess … Let’s just gloss over the fact that I am in fact a 24-year-old adult that definitely should have already had that but hey, better late than never, right? My morning routine now contains meditation, reading for 30 minutes and skincare. Three habits I absolutely wanted to pick up and put into my day regularly and they fit quite nicely in the morning .

No exercise yet, even though that’s the fourth habit that I want to pick up during this challenge, however, I don’t really yet know where in my day to put that. If any of you have any input on that, please let me know in the comments.

Mood

Our overall mood was again pretty much the same. It was good and I now was even more excited about this challenge than before because it allowed me to do stuff like meditate and read, since I had enough time on my hands to actually do so.

Productivity

Joan: “I felt really productive today. I had two lectures to attend and I felt extremely accomplished after completing them. As always I cleaned the flat and decided to practice on my guitar skills and then let the day end with a bit of bullet journaling and a nice ‘cuppa tea’ (*Britishness intensifies*).”

Me: I again managed to get done with my work stuff pretty quickly. To be fair, it does help that this week seems to be a bit of slower week and there isn’t that much going on but I did all the stuff that I had to without procrastinating so that’s a huge plus right there. I then just used the rest of the day to relax, watch some videos and work on some personal stuff.

Sleepiness-Level

Joan: “Once again, I woke up having a good amount of energy but I had a down at 10-11am just like on day 1. Could be because of my lectures or because of my sleeping “transformation” and my body not quite yet knowing what’s going on. (My money is on the lecture though …¯\_(ツ)_/¯).”

Me: My sleepiness-level actually was very consistent during the day and I wasn’t really sleepy until I actually had to go to bed. At that point my body was like “it’s almost 12:30am, we go sleep now.”

Motivation

Joan: “I felt rather motivated today. With each task I completed, I felt more and more motivated to do more. I felt drawn to a lot of creative tasks today, maybe to balance out the blandness of some lecture. (Definitely not looking at anyone in particular …. *cough*).”

Me: My motivation was alright.. I did get my work stuff done and kept writing stuff for the blog but other than that I didn’t really do as much personal project work as I would have liked to, but I was okay with that and tried not to be disappointed about it and instead celebrate the things that I did do. (Yay to a more positive mindset!)

Plans for the next few days

Joan: “I am going to try and minimize my use of my phone and such, especially when going to sleep. I want to try falling asleep without any background noise/just music and no talking, to see, if that makes me fall asleep quicker.”

Me: I also want to stop using my phone and particularly social media shortly before bed. To try and do that I want to try and read and/or meditate before bed as well because that usually helps me to wind down and get sleepy.

So, that’s day 2 done. So far, we have definitely have noticed some improvements straight away but it’s still too early to say anything conclusive. Let’s see how tomorrow goes!

Hopefully, I’ll see you there and as always stay safe and stay healthy ❤

~Luna


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Day 1 – The First Step is Always the Hardest … Or is it?

Monday marked the first day for our “path to self-improvement” challenge, but before I go straight into our “findings” as promised, I want to first explain, how we decided to gage things.

It was clear to us that we needed some way of judging this whole thing, so we have decided to, besides just writing down our experiences, also create some parameters that would help us determine what exactly has changed/will change over the course of the challenge and we came up with the following:

  • Mood
  • Productivity
  • Sleepiness-Level (Energy Level was too mainstream xD) and
  • Motivation (that includes motivation for non-work/uni things as well as the stuff that we have to do)

Alright, now that you know the ins and outs, let’s jump straight into our experiences, shall we?

Thoughts on getting up early

Surprisingly, getting up at 8am for the first time in forever was not as bad as we both thought it would be. Joan even said that she felt surprisingly awake and excited in the morning but also mentioned that that might be due to her excitement about getting started with the challenge, which I shared. However, I think my brain was like “what the actual f is going on” because I was awake at 2am at night, after having gone to bed on time mind you, and couldn’t fall asleep for like an hour or so. Thanks brain… 😑

Morning Routines

Unlike me, Joan actually already had a morning routine (kudos to you girl, I thought I could never), which consisted of making her bed, doing her skincare routine and brushing her teeth, followed by “a nice steaming cup of coffee and some music to lighten my mood and make me feel less dead.” Her new morning routine isn’t drastically different but rather just improved. She added a 10-min yoga session and a 5-minute guided meditation with positive affirmations to the things that she was already doing.

As already mentioned, my morning routine was practically non-existent. Besides making my bed and brushing my teeth, my mornings always looked different from day to day. Sometimes I would have breakfast immediately, sometimes I would read for hours in bed or just be on my phone for ages and sometimes I would get up and have breakfast while watching a YouTube video. Basically pure chaos, zero structure (that sounds like a very bad ad for something). So, I definitely wanted to change that and start my day with some structure. Didn’t manage to do so on the first day tho, so more on that in the Day 2 Post.

Mood

Our mood was practically identical. We both were super excited to get started with the challenge and nothing really bad happened to us during the day either which led to both of us being in a pretty good mood for the entire day.

Productivity

Joan: “As it was the first day of a new uni semester today, I had a lecture to attend to and make some decisions of an organizational nature and plan some stuff out. I did more than usual on that day with the morning yoga and getting a healthy breakfast and all that. I noticed that I had a lot more time and I used that to learn some songs on my guitar like “Toss a coin to your witcher” (if anyone wants to start a band – let me know ;D).”

Me: Seeing as I work from home, I sometimes have pretty jam-packed days, but for the first time in probably since I started working for this company, I was actually done with all my stuff by roughly 2pm and I suddenly had a all this time at my disposal that I barely knew what to do with.

Sleepiness-Level

Joan: “My energy level was pretty high, also heightened by doing the yoga and the meditation in the morning with a noticeable down at around 10-11am. This down lasted for about 2 hours and I had to “fight” the urge to take a nap or something. I managed to do so and had a nearly constant energy level only interrupted by a slight headache at around 11pm in the evening.”

Me: I felt completely fine during the day and I was definitely more energetic than usual and it wasn’t until I had come back from a brief trip to the shopping center that I experienced an energy crash, but when I did, I kinda crashed hard. You know the meme of the little girl who just lays down on the beach and goes ” I wanna take a nap” – yeah, that’s what I felt like. I did resist the urge tho, by basically just eating a lot of cookies to keep my blood sugar up and distracting myself with some personal projects because I knew that if I took a nap right then and there, I would not have been able to fall asleep when I needed to at night.

Motivation

Joan: “I felt some motivation to get things started but not as much as I had hoped for. I cleaned the flat and felt excited to start the yoga routine and meditation, but I’m not sure yet, if that is not just my brain going ‘uhhh new stuff… shiny’. Jury is still out on that one.”

Me: My motivation was quite high during the entirety of the day and suprise, suprise there was barely any procrastination happening (say whaaat?). I got some work on some personal projects done and, as you might have noticed, for the first time in a long time I have actually written a blog post again.

So, this was our first day and those were our first experiences with starting the challenge. We are both still super excited to see what comes out of it, so I will definitely see you guys in the next post!

Stay safe and stay healthy!

~Luna


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Prologue – The Path to Self-Improvement

Before I write anything else, I want to thank every single one of you that has so far liked, subscribed or supported this blog in any way, so thank you so much! It means so much more to me, than you can imagine! ❤️

So, there is no need to mitigate here: 2020 has been absolute crap for most of us, if not all of us. Admittedly, for me, there are some good things that have come out of 2020, however, the repeated lock downs and rule changes and heaven knows what not have been tiring, to say the least. To be fair, in the beginning it wasn’t so bad for me, since I am a huge introvert and don’t really go out that much anyway (introvert gang unite), but inevitably even I reached the point, where somehow everything went south.

I lost my motivation for things that I used to enjoy, including bullet journaling, streaming and, as you probably have noticed, blogging. Everything sorta felt “meh” to me and every single day, I only did the bare minimum that I had to do for uni and for my job. I even had days, where all I did was lie in bed all day, being on my phone and eating snacks. On top of that, I always stayed up until late into the night/ early into the morning, (depending on how you wanna see it) and got up late. So, needless to say, my life, time plan, sleeping schedule and mental state were all a bit of a wreck. And it stayed like that for the most part of the year. Not ideal for writing a thesis and finishing up your Bachelor’s degree at uni, but somehow I did it nonetheless. 😅

It was only recently that I found my spark again and decided that enough is enough, I don’t wanna live like this any longer. I realized that I alone had the power to change things and to improve, well, basically everything about my life, starting with my mental state.

Before I continue with my story, I want to state that I am 100% aware that in some cases this is not easy to do or might even be impossible without the help of therapy. So please, do not take this as a “oh, all you need to do, is change your mindset and then aaaall of your problems will magically disappear” *does the jazz hands*. Yeah, no. Mental health and related problems and of course mental disorders are to be taken seriously and they are in fact a real thing, despite what many people still to this day seem to believe, but in my case, it was indeed manageable.

So I took the time to look back on all the things that I had lost motivation for the previous year and really thought hard about why I lost motivation in the first place. What can be improved about these things, so that this doesn’t happen again? It would be too long to include all the reasons here, but let’s just say that for many things, I had the right mindset but the wrong approach.

When I recognized that what I had to do, was to approach things from a different perspective, all of a sudden my inspiration was back because suddenly there was something that I could do, something that was in my power to improve. I felt invigorated to go back to creating content, no matter which way, and finally again felt like I was actually able to do the stuff that I’ve been wanting to do. I realized and I know this is gonna sound cheesy af that the the thing that was holding me back was, as usual, none other than myself.

However, while changing my mindset was arguably the most important step, I also knew that it was only the first step of many that I wanted to take on this path to self-improvement (roll credits!). Mainly, I wanted to improve my sleeping schedule first and foremost and pick up some other good habits along the way.

Fast forward to I think it was Tuesday a week ago and a very good friend of mine and I are having a chat on discord about basically everything, as tends to happen with the two of us, and we end up talking about wanting to improve sleeping habits and the like. During the course of this talk, I somewhat jokingly suggest that we should make this into some sort of challenge and what do you know, roughly a week later, so starting from yesterday, we have set ourselves the challenge of getting up at 8:00 am every single day for this week and then starting from next week onward getting up at 7:00 am.

Many of you will probably now say: “Wow, 8:00/ 7:00 am? That’s so late, I (have to) get up at [insert any time earlier than 8:00/ 7:00 am] every single day” and I know, I know for many this will sound ridiculous, but believe me when I say that this a huge improvement, if you tended to not get up until noon before.

So long story short, I in particular wanted to have a way to hold myself accountable for actually sticking with this challenge and I thought it could be fun to document the results, difficulties, changes, improvements and so on. And thus, this will become a mini series on this blog (Yey! *throws confetti).

I have created a separate category, called “The Path to Self-Improvement”, where I will document the “findings” from the previous day every morning, for at least two weeks, in smaller blog posts. Joan, the friend that I am doing this challenge with, has agreed to also document and provide me with her “findings”, so we, and you, can see where our experiences differ and where they align.

So, I hope you guys are as excited to accompany us on this journey as we are about going on it and I will “see” you in the next post and of course, as always, please stay safe and healthy.

~Luna


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