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Prologue – The Path to Self-Improvement

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So, there is no need to mitigate here: 2020 has been absolute crap for most of us, if not all of us. Admittedly, for me, there are some good things that have come out of 2020, however, the repeated lock downs and rule changes and heaven knows what not have been tiring, to say the least. To be fair, in the beginning it wasn’t so bad for me, since I am a huge introvert and don’t really go out that much anyway (introvert gang unite), but inevitably even I reached the point, where somehow everything went south.

I lost my motivation for things that I used to enjoy, including bullet journaling, streaming and, as you probably have noticed, blogging. Everything sorta felt “meh” to me and every single day, I only did the bare minimum that I had to do for uni and for my job. I even had days, where all I did was lie in bed all day, being on my phone and eating snacks. On top of that, I always stayed up until late into the night/ early into the morning, (depending on how you wanna see it) and got up late. So, needless to say, my life, time plan, sleeping schedule and mental state were all a bit of a wreck. And it stayed like that for the most part of the year. Not ideal for writing a thesis and finishing up your Bachelor’s degree at uni, but somehow I did it nonetheless. πŸ˜…

It was only recently that I found my spark again and decided that enough is enough, I don’t wanna live like this any longer. I realized that I alone had the power to change things and to improve, well, basically everything about my life, starting with my mental state.

Before I continue with my story, I want to state that I am 100% aware that in some cases this is not easy to do or might even be impossible without the help of therapy. So please, do not take this as a “oh, all you need to do, is change your mindset and then aaaall of your problems will magically disappear” *does the jazz hands*. Yeah, no. Mental health and related problems and of course mental disorders are to be taken seriously and they are in fact a real thing, despite what many people still to this day seem to believe, but in my case, it was indeed manageable.

So I took the time to look back on all the things that I had lost motivation for the previous year and really thought hard about why I lost motivation in the first place. What can be improved about these things, so that this doesn’t happen again? It would be too long to include all the reasons here, but let’s just say that for many things, I had the right mindset but the wrong approach.

When I recognized that what I had to do, was to approach things from a different perspective, all of a sudden my inspiration was back because suddenly there was something that I could do, something that was in my power to improve. I felt invigorated to go back to creating content, no matter which way, and finally again felt like I was actually able to do the stuff that I’ve been wanting to do. I realized and I know this is gonna sound cheesy af that the the thing that was holding me back was, as usual, none other than myself.

However, while changing my mindset was arguably the most important step, I also knew that it was only the first step of many that I wanted to take on this path to self-improvement (roll credits!). Mainly, I wanted to improve my sleeping schedule first and foremost and pick up some other good habits along the way.

Fast forward to I think it was Tuesday a week ago and a very good friend of mine and I are having a chat on discord about basically everything, as tends to happen with the two of us, and we end up talking about wanting to improve sleeping habits and the like. During the course of this talk, I somewhat jokingly suggest that we should make this into some sort of challenge and what do you know, roughly a week later, so starting from yesterday, we have set ourselves the challenge of getting up at 8:00 am every single day for this week and then starting from next week onward getting up at 7:00 am.

Many of you will probably now say: “Wow, 8:00/ 7:00 am? That’s so late, I (have to) get up at [insert any time earlier than 8:00/ 7:00 am] every single day” and I know, I know for many this will sound ridiculous, but believe me when I say that this a huge improvement, if you tended to not get up until noon before.

So long story short, I in particular wanted to have a way to hold myself accountable for actually sticking with this challenge and I thought it could be fun to document the results, difficulties, changes, improvements and so on. And thus, this will become a mini series on this blog (Yey! *throws confetti).

I have created a separate category, called “The Path to Self-Improvement”, where I will document the “findings” from the previous day every morning, for at least two weeks, in smaller blog posts. Joan, the friend that I am doing this challenge with, has agreed to also document and provide me with her “findings”, so we, and you, can see where our experiences differ and where they align.

So, I hope you guys are as excited to accompany us on this journey as we are about going on it and I will “see” you in the next post and of course, as always, please stay safe and healthy.

~Luna


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    Procrastination Frustration

    Most of us know it, many of us do it: procrastinating. Including me, so in today’s post I want to talk to you about my experiences with procrastination and why it annoys me so much.

    But before we dive deeper into my personal story and experiences, we first have to answer the question: what even is procrastination? Essentially, the act of procrastinating means to postpone something to “later” but the problem about this is nobody, not even you yourself really knows when this “later” is going to be. You just don’t wanna do it right now and so do other things instead. Those can either also be productive things like cleaning or doing work around the house or, and this is the more likely version of procrastination, spending the time watching videos, playing video games, being on social media etc. Now, I’m not saying that those are bad things to do, ef no, I do them myself often enough, and they are definitely great leisure time activities.

    So if the activities themselves are not the problem, then what is it? It’s the time you do them in/ the activity you do them instead of. Say, you have a big project due soon-ish and it is so much work that you don’t know where to start. The smart and probably correct thing to do would be to just start, anywhere, doesn’t matter where as long as you do it, after all you can go back, revise your work and improve it. As a procrastinator, however, you do the exact opposite and just spend your time doing other things for so long that it gets too late for you to do the actual work and so you end up postponing it to the next day. And then rinse and repeat until the deadline is literally in a few days, you panic, have to pull an allnighter (or multiple) and the project ends up being rushed.

    Sounds horrible right? Why would anyone do that to themselves?

    Well, here is the thing, I don’t know. I don’t know, why I don’t get up early in the morning, do my work straight away and then have the rest of the day for whatever it is I want to do. It sounds like such a nice thing to have and yet I rarely ever manage to do so. I don’t even really know when I started procrastinating. I can only remember that I suddenly started doing it and have been doing it ever since. And man, does it suck! πŸ˜…

    Getting instant gratification from doing all those leisure time activities when you’re not supposed to be doing them doesn’t even feel good. You feel unhappy, guilty and there is this little voice in the back of your mind that constantly goes: “you should be doing work, have you thought about your work?, why are you doing this? you know that you’re gonna be angry at yourself, if you keep this up”…. and so on and so forth. I know all of this and yet it is so hard to break this habit. It’s like being on a roller coaster that goes around and around and around and I’m already sick from the ride and I wanna get off it but at some point some part of my mind has decided that this is my life now and we’re gonna have fun on this ride!

    Some people that are non-procrastinators will now probably think “but Luna, this seems to be just an issue of conquering your weaker self, you just have to learn how to be stronger than that!” and yeah, honestly? You’re right, it is absolutely just that. And I guess that is what frustrates me so much about it. Sometimes it works out: I get up earlier, plan out my day, take regular breaks and just get stuff done; and it feels fantastic!
    There are techniques that work for me as well: bullet journaling really helps me out, so does breaking tasks down to smaller junks and I have also started to actively decide against working when I feel like I can’t concentrate or lack the motivation to do so, if I have the freedom to do so, of course. All of those things are helping but it would be so much easier, if I could just get off this ride and move on. πŸ˜…

    I guess the only way out of this really is to keep working on myself and my mindset. However, writing this post, I have also realized something. Not all procrastination is bad I would even go as far as to say that there are even some kinds that are beneficial! Sometimes you might not want to rush into things that you might end up unhappy with/in. That could be jobs, relationships or other bigger choices in life that you might wanna think over again or maybe you have already made a choice, you ended up being unhappy with and now you want to change something by leaving it be for a while in order to pursue something that interests you more.

    All of those are situations where you might want to procrastinate a little bit in order to find out what you really want or what really works for you and that is more than okay because if the opportunity presents itself, why not do something that really makes you happy?

    ~Luna

    Still… can someone call a theme park worker, please? I’d like to get off this ride now.


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      Next Stop: Nostalgia Valley!

      Today I want to share with you my history with video games, what they mean to me and how Twitch plays a role in all of this. So I hope you’re ready for some nostalgia and story-time. 😊

      Video games have always been a part of me, since I was little. I used to watch my parents play them in fact. My dad introduced me to games like Sacred or later on Guild Wars, whereas my mum, despite also playing those games, shared her love for Anno and Sims with me. They both showed me how much fun it can be to just tune out from the real world for a few hours and immerse yourself in a digital one.

      Fast forward a few years and your girl is now eight years old and has finally convinced her parents to get her her first handheld gaming console for her birthday. It was a Game Boy Advance and it had this awesome silver and black design on it that looked like flames.(Can you tell I still love this console? xD) I was over the moon when I got it and from then on Super Mario, Rayman and Spyro basically became my life and I loved every second of it!

      I got my first computer when I was 11. I remember the day vividly, my dad had put his old PC-set-up in my room, so the boys at my birthday party would have something to play with. Little did he know that it was me who spent basically my entire birthday party glued to the screen xD. It took a little bit of convincing but eventually I got to keep the PC in my room. It was one of those old CRT-monitors that were common back then (and my god those things were huge ^^) and a mouse and a keyboard that looked whole lot different from what most of us, including myself, have nowadays. I just realized I’m making this sound like I’m sooo old when in reality I’m 23; makes me realize how fast the tech world is changing ^^. It was then that I discovered my first ever RPG – Sacred. I can’t tell you how many hours I’ve spent playing this game over the years, trying it out with different characters, even playing it together with my mum via LAN, it was a hell of a lot of fun. Sacred paved the way for my love for PC-games and while I still enjoy playing games on hand held consoles or other consoles, PC-gaming is my main thing.

      Video games have helped me through some difficult times in life, where all I wanted to do was to turn off my brain for a little bit, tune out and focus on a world that wasn’t this one. They have helped me discover beautiful worlds and made me feel successful, strong and powerful when I wasn’t feeling like that in real life. They have helped me step back from problems by blocking them out for a bit, which enabled me to go back to those problems after they have had time to simmer a bit and I was able to look at them from a more objective angle. They have shaped a big part of me into what I am today and I will be forever grateful that to this day this is something my whole family enjoys and we can bond over.

      Now, how does Twitch fit into all of this? This joy, emotion and all of the things that video games gave me, and are still giving me, are things I want to share with the world. I want to connect with like-minded people and interact with them, giving both myself and them a place where they can belong and give them an opportunity to smile, laugh or simply to focus on something else for a while. All of these content creators that I watch or read have given me so much and my goal is to be able to do the same.

      Being a content creator has always been something that I wanted to do and now I’m finally starting to do so. It’s scary and exciting at the same time and there are still a lot of hurdles that I have to overcome and I’m aware that there will be a lot of hurdles in the future as well. The path I have taken is not gonna be an easy one but I am convinced it is going to be worth it in the end; and as I learn and improve, my content hopefully will too!

      Thank you for taking the time to read this little insight into my life and my thoughts. I hope all of you are staying safe and well. ❀

      ~Luna~


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      Putting myself out there

      On Tuesday the 21st of April 2020 I did something that I was really scared of.

      I pushed myself out of my comfort zone, decided to put myself out there and did my very first stream on Twitch. I know, right – crazy! I still can’t believe I actually did it. ^^;

      I was extremely nervous and a lot of thoughts were racing through my head: “is everything gonna work out technology wise? Are people even gonna watch me and do I really want them to? Am I gonna know what to say? Am I gonna be able to handle keeping an eye on everything? What are people gonna think of me?” and so on and so forth.

      So, you can see that I tend to worry and overthink things a lot and normally, those thoughts and the uncertainty of it all would have been enough for me to decide that it might be safer not do it but … I did it nonetheless; and it felt amazing! πŸ˜€

      Well, I was still super nervous and some things sadly did go wrong as well but towards the end of it I was starting to relax a bit more and by the time I was done with the stream, I was already looking forward to the next one.
      I also realized that every time you start with something new, you have to start at the beginning. There is no shortcut to new skills and that is good. You, me, all of us have to let ourselves be a beginner at… well, the beginning of learning how to do a new thing or activity in order to become good at it.
      It is rare that someone starts learning something completely new and they’re automatically good at at and we shouldn’t put ourselves down when we are not immediately perfect at something.

      Mishaps and mistakes happen, we are only human after all.

      Of course those things are specific to my situation but in general, I can really vouch for trying out something new, maybe even something you might initially be afraid of; as long as it doesn’t actually harm you or anybody else of course.

      I think learning to put yourself out there and possibly getting judged by other people for it is an important lesson that we all have to learn sooner or later because it is a valuable skill for life and can give you a huge confidence boost.

      Has there ever been anything you’ve been scared of doing and ended up doing it nonetheless?
      How did it feel?
      Please, let me know in the comments I love hearing these kinds of stories! 😊

      Take care! ❀

      Luna


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      Hi, and welcome to my first ever post. πŸ˜€

      I’m very happy that I’ve finally gotten around to doing this and I’m glad you, dear reader, are a part of this pathway that I want to take or rather have taken.
      I’ve to admit I’m very new to all of this but I’m hoping that I will get the hang of everything very soon.

      Anyways, you probably want to know what this blog is going to be about, right? Well, for one you will find a lot of Bullet Journal posts. If you don’t know what that is, don’t worry you won’t have to wait very long to find out because I’m planning on uploading a post about it and how it changed my life very soon.
      Who knows, if you’re lucky it might even be up already. πŸ˜„

      Another type of post that I plan on doing on a regular basis is a personal post. This can either be something that I find is really important to talk about or something else that has to do with mental health and probably a few quarantine related posts as well.

      Last but not least I’m gonna be posting about my every day life. Those posts could contain all sorts of things: maybe it’s related to video games or something interesting I found out or just some tips and tricks that I’ve maybe figured out help me and that I want to share with you. 😊

      Those are just some starting ideas that I had and nothing is set in stone. There are a lot of different topics that I’m interested in, so they will definitely pop up sooner or later but for now, I hope you’re as excited and interested about what’s to come as I am and will enjoy this journey down this new path with me. πŸ˜€

      Please, stay safe! ❀

      -Luna


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